9/10/2023 0 Comments Rainy daze absurd bird![]() The thought of more fighting only made me cringe inside. Someone who was always fighting for themselves, others, or even fighting against myself and what I wanted. But what I do know, is that I had felt like a fighter my whole life. I still to this moment am not completely sure what I responded out of. I wanted to pretend I had never even heard those words but couldn’t stop pondering why they made me so upset. So I forced myself to write down the phrase and threw the index card into the back of my journal. What I had heard didn’t feel empowering, but I knew it was very important for me to hear. I was crying and concerned that there was something wrong with me as I began to listen to others share these sweet and empowering things they had heard from the Lord. I was overwhelmed with anger and sadness that I couldn’t even write it down. I knew by the instant rage that this wasn’t just something that I didn’t believe about myself, but something I did not want to be. Something that would give me the freedom to live as a victim a bit longer. As I heard this I immediately asked again in hopes that I would get something more restful or helpless. From the still small voice inside of me I heard “A mighty warrior”. The response I got was simple and anticlimactic to be honest. But, I came here to grow, so I placed my fear aside and asked. I was hesitant to do so because I was slightly afraid of what I would hear. ![]() Later I found out that it wasn’t the fighting for things to be right that I needed rest from, but the striving that I needed rest from. Later, we were told to ask Jesus for a prophetic declaration of who we are for this year. It was like someone was finally acknowledging how hard I felt like I was fighting for things in my life. When I first received a prophetic word about resting it settled deep within my soul. Flowers begin to show their strength, the colors of the rocks become more vibrant, and the grass shines. And it’s funny how when your perspective of rain changes, so does the things around you. It offers you an escape from the daily rush of activity but isn’t completely hindering your ability to live your normal life. ![]() Although most people complain about how it leaves everything wet, no other weather beckons people to rest quiet like this one. There is something just so beautiful about it. But whenever we had one I would take full advantage of the beautiful lighting and the amount of comfort and coziness they could bring. ![]() In Kentucky rainy days weren’t as common as they are here in Eureka. ![]()
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